I was desperate to hang out just now.
I was desperate to have a short position over weekend.
I was desperate. And I know how desire can drive man crazy.
Off my charts. Went to FB.
Whenever I have trading problem, I know, your ideas will pop! inside my head.
Whenever I wanted to do something, and I know, your ideas will pop! inside my head.
sometimes, I am just tired of the clashing ideas...
I am simply an ordinary person. With ordinary desire that all man will have, with greed and with fear.
May be I also wanted to do what you advised, may be I am now in my transformation and I have too many clash of ideas that I am almost gonna burst!
I would love to have drinks with friends, watch movies with classmates, I would love to spend time with someone special over weekends. And because of these silly desire, I caused myself so much burden... I desperate to hang out. I texted many of my friends... I know, my best friends E and G are far away from me... I need to drive for 1 hour to meet them... and it is already 10pm here. If I really do so, I would end up coming home late and mum will worry, people who love me will worry.
I remember a very meaningful story I heard this week, and the bottom line of the story is:
The difference between a Prison and a Monastery is, the people who are in the Prison, they simply do not want to be there. And people who are in the monastery, they chose to be there.
I took a shower.
Cool my head.
Honestly, I just want someone to be with me --- And I can be the someone! I can be my own best friend.
So, lets plan for activities ahead!
Next week, is a no active trading week, I would indulge myself in cakes, chocolates, dance, yoga, dance, movies, drinks, friends, travelling, char kuey teow, rojak, coconuts, workshops, meeting new friends, making mistakes, and making more mistakes! =)
Release the inner child in me!! Happy Happy!!
be an ordinary person, live an extraordinary life! gambateh n happy weekend sifu.. :)
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